I’m super excited for the conference this weekend because it’ll be my only conference for the next 7 months or so. But at the same time I’m super stressed about the things that have to happen before it, all the things that will happen after it, not to mention the things that could happen during the conf. I wasn’t so anxious about it until today. I’m too good at suppressing stress until the last min, now I’m about to explode. I guess it’s mostly because some things have been confirmed so I can’t be in denial anymore. It’s always either be in denial and be frustrated and pent up, or suffer the painful truth. If only I were more of an analytical person, then I wouldn’t have to deal with my troublesome emotions. I think what bothers me the most though is that when I’m stressed and emotional I can physically feel it in my body, so suffering through the painful truth is not just figurative. Sorry for the rant, just needed to get some stuff off my chest so I can focus a little better on my studies.